Bullet Point #1:
The lesson where we talked about Selena was a very special class for me because it showed how many people show a mutual love for one person. Discussing Selenareally allowed me to experience a bond that ive never really had in a class. Typically in classes we sit and focus on the lesson in order to absorb as much information as possible but for this lesson we came together for this common topic of something we loved in order to create a different type of classroom experience. This course has allowed me to take in so much information, whether it be political groups or silent messages hidden within lyrics and music videos; the knowledge that I have gained form the readings and music of this class showed me how a common interest will always bring groups together in the best possible way.
Bullet point #3:
Spotify playlist:
- Train Wreck By James Arthur } this song makes me think back to the scene where they get into an accident, theyre talking about their relationship yet there is no relationship to be discussed. They get into an accident and are greeted by the kill the neighborhood was waiting for unknowing of what dangers are around them.
- In this shirt by The Irrepressibles } This song reminds me of Kimberle because of her struggle with depression yet she copes with with it in a way with sexual encounters, this song gives off very camping and glooming vibes while talking about a relationship they crave for.
- Experience – Starkey Remix by Ludovico Einaudi, Starki } While this song containing no words it gives off very intense and emotional vibes that one can relate to the scene where theyre driving fast paced in the tunnel with no lights on. When reading of that scene I immediately thought of this song because of how minimal yet intense it is as the driving scene was in that part for the main character.
- Ending by Isak Danielson } This song reminds me of the relationship kimberle and the main character shared because of the way Kimberle is in such a deep hole of desperation and sadness and the main person there for her is the main character and no matter what kimberle does shes not pushed away if anything she is cared for even more.
Bullet Point #4:
When reading the story Pandoras box i was a little confused until the end of the events occurring, pieces were coming and going but i didnt get the full picture until the last line. The story reminds me of the actor Elliot Page who recently came out as trans, his story is fairly new and has a lot of people talking. While we dont get a lot of an inside look into his struggles coming to terms with it or experiences he has had it is understandable to think that he has had some unpleasant ones as the ones in pandoras box as trans people face a lot of backlash and torment for absolutely no reason. Usually when the news relates to trans people they discuss hate crimes so i chose this one in order to make it a little less gloomy and more joyful about someone coming to terms with who they truly are.
Bullet Point #5:
Bullet point #6:
I chose the poem My therapist says make friends with your monsters. I chose this scene from Emperors new Groove because when talking about inner demons my first thought was the angel and the devil people have on their shoulders representing their consciousness and intrusive thoughts. This relates because you can never really get rid of these thoughts you just learn to either ignore them or work with them which I think is a great connection to the angel and devil representation because the scenario can go so wrong causing inner turmoil in a person as we can see in the movie clip where he is debating what to do.
Bullet Point #7:
Its been two months since Ive been on this journey to keep up the online conversation between me and Antenna. I want to see her. The online conversations between us can only provide with only so much satisfaction. Talking with no touch only craving for someone I cannot ever truly have.
Youre more than welcome to come and visit anytime, I miss you and what we had.
We’ve gotten past craving eachothers touch and taste, every once and a while we tease and taunt of what we could be doing if I traveled to where she was, leaving everything behind just to taste her and feel her again. Antenna would be so welcoming so open to my love and like I said before I would let her love me. This so called porcupine love would not do me in like before, I wont let it. I want to love her to keep her forever.
Don’t you ever wonder what it would be like if you just left without thinking about the bad of what could happen.
I still had to put the pieces together but I was going to see her, I needed to see her to hold her and treat her how I couldnt before.
I bought the tickets. Antenna is calling for me as an antenna would call for radio waves. She doesnt know that im going there one hundred percent yet. We have talked about it but there is still so much thought of doubt on my end. I dont want to fall back into my porcupine lover or else it wouldnt be worth it.
I already told you I only remember you as loving there is no need to worry I only want to see you.
Shes so sure of what will be but I have so many expectations and if I mess them up it will all have been for nothing. Finding her wouldve been for nothing, I would have ended up sinking these needles deeper into myself hoping for it to fix itself. I packed my bags and left in the morning. I told her I would be arriving in the morning and meet her at the airport. I was nervous to see her again in person. The chemistry online of what we did and what we would do to eachother when finally meeting could completely vanish.
Im so excited! I have so many plans of what we can do to pass time when youre visiting!
She was so excited and I was so full of doubt, debating whether or not this would be worth it for both of us. The plane took off and I only thought of her touch. As I felt the plane start descend to its final destination i realized there would be no going back. As I got my bags I looked around riddled with fear and excitement, tingling from thoughts of what could be and then we locked eyes. My porcupine needles left as we embraced inhaling each others scent and that’s when I knew it would be alright.
