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Gonzalez, Brianna Final Project

Bullet Point #1:

The lesson where we talked about Selena was a very special class for me because it showed how many people show a mutual love for one person. Discussing Selenareally allowed me to experience a bond that ive never really had in a class. Typically in classes we sit and focus on the lesson in order to absorb as much information as possible but for this lesson we came together for this common topic of something we loved in order to create a different type of classroom experience. This course has allowed me to take in so much information, whether it be political groups or silent messages hidden within lyrics and music videos; the knowledge that I have gained form the readings and music of this class showed me how a common interest will always bring groups together in the best possible way. 

Bullet point #3:

Spotify playlist: 

  • Train Wreck By James Arthur } this song makes me think back to the scene where they get into an accident, theyre talking about their relationship yet there is no relationship to be discussed. They get into an accident and are greeted by the kill the neighborhood was waiting for unknowing of what dangers are around them. 
  • In this shirt by The Irrepressibles } This song reminds me of Kimberle because of her struggle with depression yet she copes with with it in a way with sexual encounters, this song  gives off very camping and glooming vibes while talking about a relationship they crave for. 
  • Experience – Starkey Remix by Ludovico Einaudi, Starki } While this song containing no words it gives off very intense and emotional vibes that one can relate to the scene where theyre driving fast paced in the tunnel with no lights on. When reading of that scene I immediately thought of this song because of how minimal yet intense it is as the driving scene was in that part for the main character. 
  • Ending by Isak Danielson } This song reminds me of the relationship kimberle and the main character shared because of the way Kimberle is in such a deep hole of desperation and sadness and the main person there for her is the main character and no matter what kimberle does shes not pushed away if anything she is cared for even more.  

Bullet Point  #4:

https://variety.com/2020/film/news/elliot-page-transgender-ellen-page-juno-umbrella-academy-1234843023/

When reading the story Pandoras box i was a little confused until the end of the events occurring, pieces were coming and going but i didnt get the full picture until the last line. The story reminds me of the actor Elliot Page who recently came out as trans, his story is fairly new and has a lot of people talking. While we dont get a lot of an inside look into his struggles coming to terms with it or experiences he has had it is understandable to think that he has had some unpleasant ones as the ones in pandoras box as trans people face a lot of backlash and torment for absolutely no reason. Usually when the news relates to trans people they discuss hate crimes so i chose this one in order to make it a little less gloomy and more joyful about someone coming to terms with who they truly are. 

Bullet Point #5: 

Bullet point #6: 

I chose the poem My therapist says make friends with your monsters. I chose this scene from Emperors new Groove because when talking about inner demons my first thought was the angel and the devil people have on their shoulders representing their consciousness and intrusive thoughts. This relates because you can never really get rid of these thoughts you just learn to either ignore them or work with them which I think is a great connection to the angel and devil representation because the scenario can go so wrong causing inner turmoil in a person as we can see in the movie clip where he is debating what to do.  

Bullet Point #7: 

Its been two months since Ive been on this journey to keep up the online conversation between me and Antenna. I want to see her. The online conversations between us can only provide with only so much satisfaction. Talking with no touch only craving for someone I  cannot ever truly have. 

Youre more than welcome to come and visit anytime, I miss you and what we had. 

We’ve gotten past craving eachothers touch and taste, every once and a while we tease and taunt of what we could be doing if I traveled to where she was, leaving everything behind just to taste her and feel her again. Antenna would be so welcoming so open to my love and like I said before I would let her love me. This so called porcupine love would not do me in like before, I wont let it. I want to love her to keep her forever. 

Don’t you ever wonder what it would be like if you just left without thinking about the bad of what could happen. 

I still had to put the pieces together but I was going to see her, I needed to see her to hold her and treat her how I couldnt before. 

I bought the tickets. Antenna is calling for me as an antenna would call for radio waves. She doesnt know that im going there one hundred percent yet. We have talked about it but there is still so much thought of doubt on my end. I dont want to fall back into my porcupine lover or else it wouldnt be worth it. 

I already told you I only remember you as loving there is no need to worry I only want to see you.

Shes so sure of what will be but I have so many expectations and if I mess them up it will all have been for nothing. Finding her wouldve been for nothing, I would have ended up sinking these needles deeper into myself hoping for it to fix itself. I packed my bags and left in the morning. I told her I would be arriving in the morning and meet her at the airport. I was nervous to see her again in person. The chemistry online of what we did and what we would do to eachother when finally meeting could completely vanish. 

Im so excited! I have so many plans of what we can do to pass time when youre visiting!

She was so excited and I was so full of doubt, debating whether or not this would be worth it for both of us. The plane took off and I only thought of her touch. As I felt the plane start descend to its final destination i realized there would be no going back. As I got my bags I looked around riddled with fear and excitement, tingling from thoughts of what could be and then we locked eyes. My porcupine needles left as we embraced inhaling each others scent and that’s when I knew it would be alright.   

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Palestinians opened their homes to welcome Jews when their homes were destroyed in Nazi Germany, but now Zionist Jews are taking advantage of Palestinians, their land and even committing genocide. Palestinians are now being stripped of a place they once called home and as time goes on they are losing more and more of their land. This touches on the dynamics between Israelis and Palestinians, including acts of kindness from Palestinians to Israelis. Nonetheless, there has been rampant abuse and violence from the Israeli army during these agricultural conflicts. This context helps explain the cycle of trauma and how it affects interactions between civilians and soldiers on both sides. Even though Israel is oppressing Palestinians, they also suffer, as their people experience violence from resistance movements as well. In this paper, I would like to introduce that I understand both sides of why Jerusalem is important to different religions because it is a holy city. But I believe that it is Palestinians’ land and they have the right to want it back. This isn’t a war, it is a genocide.  Katherine Natanel (2022) examines the impact of the continuous conflict between Palestine and Israel and how the traumatic experiences affect both civilians and soldiers. Her study shows how the constant state of violence and housing and food insecurity worsen emotional and psychological distress among individuals in the region. Civilians are subjected to constant threats and disruptions, experiencing chronic trauma that affects their daily lives and interactions. According to The Lancet, a Psychiatry journal article titled “Addressing the mental health crisis among children in Gaza” states, “Since Oct 7, 2023, escalating violence in Gaza has intensified a mental health crisis among its 2·1 million residents, of whom 67% are refugees and 65% are younger than 25 years. Constant bombardment and displacement and the loss of family members are predisposing many children to anxiety, depression, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), and other adverse mental health conditions.” These are the types of things that kids in Gaza are facing daily. Soldiers, on the other hand, are not only perpetrators but also victims of this cycle of violence, often dealing with post-traumatic stress and moral injuries. In her journalistic fieldwork, author Katherine Natanel describes how this trauma causes a cycle of fear, hatred, and retaliation that can deeply influence how individuals see and interact with each other. People in Palestine “Shared intimate stories and objects, openly declared their trust and moved meaningfully to include me within their lives. They offered up fears, anxieties, traumas, losses, hopes, and dreams with little reservation, articulating cautiously guarded beliefs and experiences.” Their openness and desire to speak to Natanel is a clear example of Palestinian resistance. By sharing their stories, they continue to fight to preserve their culture. This connection reflects Natanel’s observations because not only were Palestinians impacted by this cycle, but Israelis fighting in the war have been impacted as well. Many soldiers, like the one in the novel Khirbet Khizeh by S. Yizhar, disagreed with obeying orders but felt that they did not have any superiority over the rest of the soldiers. As the soldiers displace the villagers, they feel guilt and empathy once they realize their actions contribute to the larger injustice of the war. While he was forcibly removing Palestinians from their homes, other soldiers were destroying their villages. 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The two authors provide a perspective that helps their readers understand how the ongoing conflicts have an impact on mental and physical trauma and the influence on perspectives. This research helps emphasize the narratives that have been shaped from the war, using individual experiences, collective memory, and political agendas. The gap in historical experience supports the cycle of trauma, causing victimization and hatred on both sides. The pain that civilians have to endure—whether it be from displacement, the death of a loved one, or the continued occupation—influences how they view the conflict and often results in an ongoing mistrust of the “other.” The following quote from”Returning to Haifa” by Ghassan Kanafani, took place in the 1948 Palestinian war. Said S. and his wife, Safiya, were forced to leave Haifa, leaving behind their infant son, Khaldun. 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Both sides need to understand and care about each other to stop the fighting because, even though Palestinians are mostly affected by this war, both sides are losing people. These countries need a long-lasting peace treaty, unlike what happened during the British mandate. The conflict also affects people’s jobs and lives, and it’s important to think about how it impacts kids in the future and some kids dont even pass childhood. Making sure everyone’s rights are respected can help find a lasting solution. As demonstrated by Katherine Natanel in the earlier example, this cycle of trauma and violence impacts both soldiers and civilians, making them fearful, hostile, and retaliatory environment. Although Israelis are seen as oppressors, Khirbet Khizeh reveals how this conflict is also leading them to experience mental health problems and guilt.  In a similar way, soldiers of all races whether they are the oppressor or the liberator have to bear the consequences of their actions and the moral problems they encounter. This affects their capacity to interact with others who have different opinions. This cycle of hurt and different perspect […] “How has the ongoing conflict between Palestine and Israel impacted the trauma experienced by civilians and soldiers in the area, and how does this cycle of trauma affect their interactions with others and their point of view of themselves?”

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